Saturday, Oct 27

An amazing thing- a weekend with no cake work. It's a bit unnerving- what does one do all day long?

Well, plenty to do- such as catch up on my studies and such- both an enjoyment and a chore.

Training has been spotty this past week. Partly due to work/time schedules, but to be honest I've been a little blue.
There is no legitimate reason why, just that I.... I think I want to be further down the road than I am now. There are some things plaguing my psyche such as finances (no cake work is delightful but then my bank account feels so neglected). I am contemplating moving out of Manhattan and retiring once and for all.

Part of me LOVES this idea. I am fortunate to have that option and another part of me does not want to give up my home. Something is going to need to change soon though-

So it's taking it's toll energetically. Not a good thing. I think also after 6 weeks of constantly thinking about food and exercise and weighing and logging everything, I need a break.

The scale is still so irritating, but the tape measure continues to shine. I am not so bound to the metal monster, but I also had hoped that I would be slimmer by now. My goal was my Bday, which is still 2 weeks away, but I was hoping to be kissing the 140's and I'm still in the upper 150's. I've got to let that go and for the most part I have- but when I start to get moody this starts to feel like a failure- Ah the evil demons have been whispering in my ear lately.

I am right on track really. I'm just impatient.

So on the list for this weekend is to work on some new foods for lunch and dinner. Shake things up a bit. I am also stepping up into the next phase of lifting.

I progress.