Friday, October 19

I've been busy lately, but life is good.

The after affect of working with Francisco had reverberating repercussions. I was so wasted for so long afterwards, that it started to freak me out. It rattled the fragility in me that I've been dealing with. I had to give over to my body because it was so tired and sore and beat up feeling. Oh, what misery did that stir up in me. This is interesting and a good lesson.

There is NO reason to be pushing so hard at my workouts that I feel so beat up. I don't care if it should lead to a bigger gain, it's not that important to me and I will not punish myself like that ever again. I need to respect, nurture and cultivate this relationship, not beat it into submission.

So my workouts are consistent as well as they can be. Even if I'm not feeling 100% I'll train anyway- if it's only for half an hour, or just a few moves and stretches- if it's on the slate to be moving this body around I will do so to whatever level is appropriate for that day.

The good news is my physique has really been changing quite dramatically. I am getting my waistline back again, I don't feel so puffy and my clothes are actually looking good on me again. The scale is still pretty stagnant, but honestly I could give a hoot. Not only this, but I feel that I am getting stronger and this is what I want. To look good and to feel better-

I've been a little less diligent about my diet, but only because I've been socializing lately. Dating, a dinner party, it's a little tricky- however, I am not sliding into the deep, and I don't have that tendency to "celebrate" and go overboard.

One of the best parts of my diet change is that I have broken my addiction to sugar, and now at this point the sweet that I put into my life is feeling too sweet. I put a short Tablespoon of agave in my coffee in the morning- it's just too sweet to me now. I put sweet and low in a coffee yesterday and it used to barely touch my sweet tooth and now it's too saccharine (pun intended). I find this fascinating.

Overall this diet is very livable. The heathly foods along with mindful eating are an easy and successful combination.

I think it is also very comfortable to not inforce goals on myself, either with the weight loss or the training. Part of me wants to put a race on the slate, but I know I'll just feel pressure and there is just no need for that.

So onward and upward and downward!