some yoga thoughts

The mantra this morning is revelling. I did my yoga practice and was pretty tight. It's been a couple of weeks since I've done it so I shouldn't be surprised. As I was stretching and lunging, I started to feel unhappy with myself for not being in better shape.
"Ugh, this is not good, I should be looser than this and much stronger, how could I let this go for so long?" blah blah blah. As I was in a cross legged stretch I started to let that go. Instead I thought about how my muscles were lengthening at that moment, how this practice was so good for me and how I was being so good to myself. Instead of grousing and feeling badly I just enjoyed and honored how good things are. For that I am grateful.

This is the mantra I need to carry with me every day. It is not the past, it is not the ultimate future- it is the now. This beautiful morning, this yoga pose, this luscious ripe tomato. Whatever it is. I can't manipulate anything other than this moment and how I perceive it.

So I got my yoga in today, later between classes I will do some cardio. I have a 2.5 hr break and it's good for me not only to get out of the building (which these days is air conditioned to freezer levels), but to also get blood flowing after sitting for so long and for having to sit for another 2.5 hr lecture after.

I also got to thinking about success and how important that is. It was difficult to constantly face disappointments when I was sick. Again and again and again and again. So now the successes are vital. No matter how large or small I need yes and yes and yes! It's so silly really, almost juvenile, but then again, the honest truth. Fragile ego or not, I can't move forward without it.